I'm a working girl!!

I am such a slacker!!! I thought that I was doing really good at updating this, but it seems like ever since I started my job, I don't have time for anything. As many of you might know, I am NOT a night person, so work this week has almost killed me off.
On Tuesday afternoon, I started my first day as a hairstylist. I know that I love it and that is what got me through that day. I had some....RUDE customers come in, but for the most part it was a really good day and I had a really good time. This entire week I have been working from 1-9...which I HATE, so I have been begging to be switched to days. My dream came true!! Next week I get to work days!!! Anyways, for any of you that need to get a haircut...feel free to come on by, I work at Mastercuts in the Fiesta Mall

When did I get so old???

So as many of you know I took my practical test last week, and I have been super stressed about it lately...waiting to hear if I passed. Well...I heard a teacher say that if I passed I would be able to look up my license number online within 3-5 days, so like an obsessed person, I have been checking the website everyday...all day long. Well, as of this morning I still couldn't find my name ANYWHERE, so I instead of worrying about typing my name correctly like I was before, I began to worry if I passed. And if I didn't pass, it would be so embarassing and I would have to wait another 2 months and have to come up with the money all over again. Anyways, long story short, I got my license in the mail today. I was going to try and wait until my parents were here this weekend, but I couldn't help it. I HAD to open it.

So then...instead of being super excited and happy, I began to worry about how long it is going to take for us to get caught up on bills..and will I be good at what I do...and did I make the right career choice. I don't ever remember worrying like this. When did I get so old that I worry about EVERYTHING???

Playing mom and other stuff

I never quite understood what people meant when they said being a mom is a lot harder than people think. This past week I got to watch Stephanie's kids...and it was HARD!! I NEVER thought that it would be as hard as it was. It would seem like they would just push me to my limit everytime. And I think I get so frustrated because I did all the stuff they tried to pull on me. I give them an inch and they take a mile!!! It was most definately a lot of work but it was really rewarding!! It was so "nice" to see Rylee in the middle of the night screaming...but then it was more nice to hear her say please!! And it was nice to see her want me!! And we got to dance(she looks so cute when she dances the way I taught her). It was stressful...but a GREAT experience.

Then there was Mothers Day...which sucked just as much as I thought it would. I made sure I called my mommy..and I texted my family and friends that are mommies!! And it was a really hard day but I was doing really well not to feel too bad about myself and cry...and then I got a text from a friend, and I just started bawling. She wished me a happy mothers day and before I could even tell her not to bother because I'm not a mother, she texted me "because I know you have some kids waiting for you!!" I started crying, but it wasn't a self pity cry, it was more of like a...you're right...I have been promised kids. I tried my best to put on a happy face and just be the best that I could. And all of a sudden..Chris brought over tons of rocks(he has this thing where he gives rocks out as gifts?!?!)Anyways, he offered me some and I said Chris...I'm not your mom you don't need to bring me anything, and it was SO cute. Chris was like...well you take care of me as good as my mom does...and you are kind of like my mom so I want you to have them. It was seriously SO FREAKING cute!!!

STATE BOARD!!! As most of you know, I went this morning to take my practical exam that I was super nervous about. I think I did really well, but won't know for sure for about 2 weeks...so I will let you all know.

Stephanie

So this morning at 5:00 I went over to Stephanie's house and she went off to the hospital to get her tubes tied. When she left I almost wanted to cry. I mean...isn't it ironic that Matt and I are trying so hard to have a baby...and Steph knows she's done and is trying so hard to prevent having kids. It made me really sad. Anyways...I feel so bad for Stephanie. If any of you are reading this and know Stephanie, please just keep her in your prayers. Her surgery went fine but she is having a hard time dealing with the pain. I mean...I'm sure it didn't help that her daughter accidentaly head butted her in the stomach. I gave Steph the best thing that helped me when I got my appendix out. Luckily for me my mom and my big sister were there the entire time, even when I was sleeping. Sara was awesome and when I was in the hospital and hadn't showered or changed my clothes or anything she went out to GAP and bought me some pajama pants and some clean underware...and my mom stayed by my side the whole time and bought me soda to help get the air out of my stomach, so I have been giving Steph soda non stop and it seems like it has been helping which I knew it would because it helped me!!! Thanks mom!!!

Anyways, back to my original point, please just pray for Stephanie. I know she will get better but it is just really hard to see someone you love in that much pain and not be able to do ANYTHING for him or her.