For Ryan

I decided last night that every day I am going to post one new thing about someone in my family that means something to me...that maybe they don't know is something that I have held on to...so I started with Sara yesterday, and today I am going to do Ryan...so here goes.

I don't know if you guys know this but Ryan and I are like.....oil and water, we don't exactly mix well, and we never have. So one day I was feeling really crapy about myself(seems to happen a lot...I know, but bare with me) anyways, Ryan was on his mission and I think I had written him maybe like 3 letters, anyways, I came home from school and usually my parents got the mail and then gave our stuff to us, but I looked on the table and much to my suprise, there was a single letter addressed to me, from Ryan. I was really shocked and a little bit leary to open it, but I did anyways. I started reading it and I just remember starting to cry. I had made a C.D. for all of the missionaries that I knew of me playing some of my favorite songs, and my brother had actually taken the time to listen to it. I was so shocked. Ryan commented on my C.D. and I just remember thinking, my brother probably has so many things he could have been doing or listening to, and he picked my C.D. He also apologized for us not getting along our entire life. This may seem like something stupid to you, but it meant the world to me. I actually keep the letter in my scrapbook, I don't think anybody else in my family even knows that I got the letter. I am so grateful that even though it may just be a letter....it is something that I constantly can look at and know that even when my brother is being a jerk, I have proof that he does love me and knows that I am his sister forever.